My Shadow, the Fannibal

One definition of myself holds that I'm a kind-hearted person who shouldn't love violent and scary stories, serial killers or for god's sake CANNIBALS. But, due to the mysteries of fandom, I find myself on the edge of my seat tonight, and tweeting with a few hundred thousand, maybe more, Fannibals for the finale of …

you are beautiful

This video broke my heart. Again. https://youtu.be/WWTRwj9t-vU Why are we so hungry for approval and appreciation from others? Why do we equate how 'good' or 'bad' we ARE with how we LOOK? Why is it so difficult to create and build our inner sense of worth? Please tell me how this video makes you feel.

You Never Know

It happens every day. Every second, actually. Someone is breathing one moment, then not the next. It's nature's way: we're born, we die.  But my mind refuses this. No, she can't be gone, not that kind of gone. Not dead. The word landed with a leaden thud, flat black, that sucked all the air out of …

Spring Awakening

Fifteen years ago I climbed this hill, carrying only a bedroll, a sheet of plastic, some twine and a gallon jug of lemon-maple cayenne water to carry me through a three day fast. Today I am sitting on the rock that I slept on back in 1997, listening to spring awakening the mountains. Here a hawk, …